買唔落手哩

為什麼好看的球鞋不能跑
能跑的卻毫無例外奇醜無比？
拿在手上像魚雷
穿上腳像唐老鴨

switch off

女友 A 說，男女分手不外乎一個理由，就是愛得不夠，其餘統統是藉口。
即使現在他反過來求你復合，你也得想清想楚 － 她這樣勸你。
「咁嘅男人，制唔過。」
要是他連這一點都不能為你堅持，你怎麼可能指意他將來保護你或為你堅持些甚麼呢？
理智告訴你她說得很對。
可是，愛慕、眷戀、思念，能像燈掣一樣說關掉就關掉就好了。

紅豆

還沒好好的感受　雪花綻放的氣候
我們一起顫抖　會更明白　甚麼是溫柔

還沒跟你牽著手　走過荒蕪的沙丘
可能從此以後　學會珍惜　天長和地久

有時候　有時候　我會相信一切有盡頭　
相聚離開　都有時候　沒有甚麼會永垂不朽

可是我　有時候　寧願選擇留戀不放手
等到風景都看透　也許你會陪我看細水長流

還沒為你把紅豆　熬成纏綿的傷口
然後一起分享　會更明白　相思的哀愁

還沒好好的感受　醒著親吻的溫柔
可能在我左右　你才追求　孤獨的自由

有時候　有時候　我會相信一切有盡頭　
相聚離開　都有時候　沒有甚麼會永垂不朽

可是我　有時候　寧願選擇留戀不放手
等到風景都看透　也許你會陪我看細水長流

c'est la vie

像一本看到一半的小說 － 平淡，漣漪，暗湧，驚濤，暴風雨，又歸於平淡。
你開始覺得有點不耐煩，不知道這悶局何時打破。
你想翻到最終回看結局。要不然，跳幾章，看情節是否引人入勝，是否值得花時間看下去，也是好的。
可是，你手頭就只有這麼一本書。
好好歹歹，你都得一頁一頁、逐字逐字讀下去。
這故事，讀者是你，作者也是你。

both sides now

亦舒說 － 每一個人都是另一個人的傻子。
倪女士還有另一名言 － 人們愛的是一些人；與之結婚生子的，又是另一些人。
從前似懂非懂，如今自覺歷過滄桑，彷彿有所領悟。
為愛情受傷，無比動聽。
只是，有時愛情徒具虛名。
I've looked at love from both sides now.

Both Sides Now

Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud's illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all

Moons and junes and ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way

But now it's just another show
You leave'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away

I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really dont know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well somethings lost, but somethings gained
In living every day

I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all

prayer

In the Temple of the Emerald Buddha she knelt down and wept.

She prayed to all gods and deities that they would bring him back to her, make him love her till death do them apart.

timing

那時候她正好在浴室裡。

酒店的二合一洗髮水令她的頭髮乾旱打結，她去 Boots 買了 hair mask 來洗澡的時候敷。

電話響起，她心念一動，拉開浴簾伸出手拿起掛在牆上的分機。

是他。

「咦？咁快嘅？等緊邊個電話呀？」

「等你囉～」

他呆了半秒。

她一時忘記你們已經分手，習慣性地向他撒嬌。

不過，話說回來，即使對方是她的女性摯友，她也很可能這樣子說笑。

她順手抓過浴袍披在身上，夾著電話的那邊肩膀由得它，就那樣濕漉漉的站著和他聊了半句鐘。

想起來她為什麼不照直跟他說她在洗澡呢？他不見得不會再打來。

那一刻她就是想不起來，並且絲毫不覺得有這個必要。

先斬後奏

－ 要是我一早知道你自己一個人去的話我就不讓你去。
－ 我就是知道你要是一早知道我自己一個人去的話你就不讓我去所以才不告訴你。

一個人在途上

04. 04. 2007　Bangkok

最後一天了，終於。

你乘 BTS 去 Phrom Phong 站，你捨 Emporium 取 ＠Home。

沿途有一些路邊的攤檔擺開幾張摺檯賣一些叫不出名堂的小食。你本來就不是一個特別嘴饞的人，別說你一點也不餓，即使你再好奇，眼看著那幾盤循環再用的洗碗水也倒了胃口。經過一處賣花的，你稍為駐足。

再向前走，過了一個路口，來到幾間比較乾淨時髦高檔的商店。你被一家 chocolatier 的櫥窗吸引，推門而進。好一個舒適雅緻的所在，有點像 Godiva，但感覺上溫馨多了。入耳的音樂，不錯又是小野麗莎。要是累了，在這裡坐一坐，呷一杯咖啡，來一件蛋糕，倒是一件賞心樂事。你在玻璃上看見自己的倒影，身上穿著 t-shirt，頭帶鴨舌帽，身前一個小小的袋子放證件、錢包和電話，背上一個背包放水、地圖、雨傘，一身電波少年似的裝束，和這裡格格不入。你心想，算了吧，反正你剛出來不久，並不需要歇息，你還有地方要去呢，於是推門而出。

來到書上提及的那座玻璃屋。 一進門口，右方是幾張椅子，有一個從天花吊下來的透明球體，很是有趣。你把背囊放下，窩進那 bubble chair 裡，晃來晃去，像在盪鞦韆一樣。咦，這比你想像中舒適呢，而且置身其中有一種說不出的安全感。

你漫無目的心不在焉地遊走於一屋琳瑯滿目的燈具、座椅、傢俬之間。店內除了你，就只有一個老外和幾個店員。你看了幾眼，不動聲色地拍了幾張照片就走了。你其實不懂這些，看不出甚麼所以然來，反正知道都是來頭不小，價值不菲，而且要不是住幾千呎的豪宅不用考慮就對了。就當作開開眼界，聊勝於一天到晚逛百貨公司。








(to be continued)

way to go

你知道嗎？以一隻企鵝來說，你算得上相當了不起 － 連曼谷那種酷熱的地方你都獃過了。

updates

The journey has come to an end. Now at Suvarnabhumi Airport. Heard that temperature dropped in HK. UL 422. Departing at 13:20 BKK time. See you soon!

04. 04. 2007 Bangkok

I'm now in a cool place called TCDC (Thailand Creative & Design Center) and have just seen this exhibition - Explorations in Thai Modern Design.

I read from the web that you need to become a member and pay a fee in order to get inside but the staff told me that with a passport you can visit the library for free! For the first time only, of course.

So here I am. Overjoyed. It's my last day here anyway.

* 03. 04. 2007 Bangkok

So, my sense of direction is better than I thought, but my maths and calculation worse. Basically I have no problem navigating in the city and finding my way to places except for that once in JJ Market. But I have to grab for my mini calculator every time I need to convert whatever amount in THB into HK$. Pathetic~

Yesterday saw the Royal Grand Palace, Wat Phra Kaeo and department stores and shopping malls in Siam. Yes I did go to Propaganda and Habitat.

Today - Thong Lo, Chit Lom & Suan Lum Night Bazaar.

Checked out the H1 Project this morning. It is wonderful. So tranquil and far from the hustle and bustle. Finally found a moment of peace there. It's the best experience I have in Bangkok so far.

Had you been here, would you be thrilled to see those designer items - furniture, chairs, lamps, etc.? Would you have told me who the designers are and stories about them?

And they were playing Lisa Ono in Propaganda and Geo. It reminded me of you, of us.

Further to my dismay, there was no ice cream at Hay, the ice cream parlour in the Basheer, the bookstore in the H1 Project.
- "Would there be ice cream later?" Later, I meant later in the afternoon.
- "Yeah, maybe in July."


How about the restaurant "To Die For"?
"Sorry, it only opens for dinner."
I haven't really considered dining there. Still, you know, there was a sense of loss.


On the other hand, Playground is chic and fashionable but pretentious. I could almost hear a voice scream - "Show me the money! "


Chicken rice on Thong Lo for lunch.

Stopped by "i berry" ice cream parlour.

Chit Lom - more malls: Central, Amarin & Erawan and the shrine.

Dinner - food hall in Central Chit Lom. A slice of pizza (spinach & mushroom).

Took a taxi to Suan Lum. It's similar to JJ Market but so much better and without that foul smell.



Next to the Ferris Wheel there was the Beer Garden with live performance. Had some snacks there.




The stalls are quite decent. Lastly I visited the Doi Tung Coffee Shop.

Stayed out late. It was nearly 11 pm Bangkok time when I returned to hotel. Missed two calls. Was it you? I got roaming. No additional charge for receiving messages so don't hesitate if you wanna order any Boots or Wacoal products.

Just a side issue, in retrospect, I really should have brought my own toiletries. The hotel is ok but the bristles of the toothbrush are so hard they make my gums bleed. And now I realize I can only accept the flavour of Colgate. Also everytime I come out from the shower my eyes are bloodshot - dunno whether it's the water or the shampoo. But I do like the bathrobe.

02. 04. 2007 Bangkok

I don't like tropical countries.
I don't like shopping malls either.

01. 04. 2007 Bangkok

Surprise~ surprise~

Right I'm updating my blog even in Bangkok.

Am I enjoying this trip? Honestly, thus far, no.

Before I came I thought, somehow obstinately - why why why? Why couldn't I go on my own?

Now that I am here I ask - what am I doing here? What's the point of this? I'm bored of this city even before I get to know it.

Last night I was sleeping in this king size bed and I was, understandably, wondering whether there was something hiding in the closet or under the bed. I kept all the lights on, drew up the curtain, left the TV on all night and hugged the stuffed penguin you bought me on my birthday. Yeah I brought him with me. Silly, I know.

This morning I woke up and I thought - I wish I could go back to Hong Kong now. How sad.

Yeah I couldn't stop thinking how different everything would be if only you were here with me. Everything tedious and ordinary would be fun. Anything a little bit fun would be 100 times funnier.

Oh what a paradoxical and self-contradictory creature human beings are!

Don't be alarmed, dear. That's not my intention. As always, I'm just speaking from my heart, because it is only with the heart that one can see rightly.

I'll be fine. Don't you know what the title of this blog means? Tout va bien, meaning, everything is fine...just fine...